Will i regret leaving my wife and kids?

Ok so i am starting a divorce, here is the low down in short. Me and my wife have been married for about 5 years, some good ALOT bad from the start we have had probs, i dont want to put her buisness out there but i have heard of cheating though out the relationship but she always says its not true, she constantly blames me for cheating when i havent. She calls my work (i have a career not just a job at mcdonalds) and i can get into alot of trouble. We have two kids together and we fight in front of them we try not too but it happens they are young under six. And they can tell whats going on my oldest covers her ears and tells us to stop so i know they get whats going on. I go out of town alot and thats a prob for her. This last fight put me over the edge i went out of town for work and i was in a school training well i failed a test so i got upset and drank in my hotel room then passed out my phone died while i was sleeping so she started calling people in my class and the hotel to see if they had cameras to see if i was with a woman (i wasnt) so i wasnt worried about that but the fact that she called other people that i work with asking where i was and if i was with a woman was embarissing for me personally and because these people in the class with me hardly even know me. �Her drinking got tons better over time but when she drinks is when the big fights start. �She has no trust for me at all and i dont trust her, we have went to seek councling many times but it never gets us anywhere. So now i have to move for work to a diffrent state and i told her i wanted a divorce because i cant take it anymore. Heres where it starts to suck! I know i am going to miss my two kids so much. I miss them already and i havent even moved yet just knowing i will be leaving in a week is killing me. �I wont get to see them much at all living in two diffrent states. They are so young. But i cant take the fighting anymore i look at my wife diffrent and everything. I dont want to see my wife with someone else but i cant see me dealing with this anymore am i going to regret leaving im so confused. Am i am bad husband, WTF im so messed up right now. Its like do i stay and be unhappy for the kids and hope that things between me and my wife will get better, if she moves with me and things dont get better we wont have the money to seperate and move her to a diff place i will be stuck. �she says now that i am leaving that she will trust me and change but if thats true why now? Why do i have to leave to get her to change? Can people just change like that or when things get comfortable will it just go back to the old ways? �Im not saying im perfect im far from it we both have our issues and maybe thats causing some of the fighting also. One big prob she has with me is she says i care to much about my work and pick work over my family i dont think thats all true i am a very hard worker and do not want to be seen as a poor worker with my company and i like the fact that people at work come to me becuase i know what im doing but my work supports my family and i think its important to do well so i can get promotions and better support us. I dont even hardly drink i dont go out i goto work and come home. What is going on here? �I know this is a big messy all over the place question but im so lost. �I know you guys cant give me answers but advice would be great maybe you guys have delt with the same issues. I dont know.�