Monday, July 18, 2011

I'm a lesbian, but lonely?

Before I say anything, anyone who's homophobic save it, I don't care. Also I'm going to write a lot and my coming out story for anyone else who's having a hard time coming out. Before I even here'd the word gay, I was really young (15 now, 16 in a bit) I had a girl friend, we didn't do anything, because we were to young to understand but we dated. We broke up and lost touch. At this new high school I moved to about a year and a half ago, after I moved there, people kept pulling me aside to talk to me seriously to ask me if I was gay, and I would be pretty shocked, thinking at the time I was straight. I've been back and forth thinking. My mam's also talked before saying, I would be more happy if you married a woman, than a man who would hurt you. One day then, this new girl came to our school, and we just got on really well, I would miss her, want to impress her and then one day, when we accidentally bumped into each other, I just felt something clicked and then started to realise I was gay. I go over her because I had (obviously), and told my best friend. She wasn't shocked to my surprise and said she sort off knew, after a while I said to my mam one day, mam i'm gay, and she answered, SO? I was shocked again, we talked a bit but she said she was glad, I haven't told the rest of my family, but I'm ok for now. After a while, I came out to my friends in school, they were ok about it, ounce news spread then, at one of my classes when the teacher was gone, on of the boys, shouted, OMG you're gay? Are you kidding? But everyone turned on him, they took him away to talk, and when he came back he apologised, so many boys have come up to me saying they've fancied me, and everyone's been good about it. Sometimes they make little jokes but only so far. I've been really comfortable for the last year, also my mother started dating this new man, I don't know if he knows. I've been ok, but I feel a bit lonely, and would like a relationship, since there's no girls in school who are interested, maybe not yet, but I feel a bit lonely after all this time.

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